Canon!Obi-wan
hides his heart. He’s capable of caring deeply for his friends and even
completely strangers but he doesn’t show it in a way they can recognize. Thanks
to his Jedi training, Obi-wan built a lot of walls, and these walls keep him
from acting on his feelings. His relationship with Anakin helped him put some
of them down but, usually, unless he was under great stress, he
never allows himself to be guided by his emotions. If Anakin was motivated by
emotions, Obi-wan was motivated by duty (to jedi Order and to himself). Canon!
Obi-wan cares, loves, suffers, despairs but he doesn’t show it so people don’t
see it. they only see the consummate Jedi: stoic, calm, rational, focused, etc.
What Obi-wan
feels:
Obi-Wan
reached out, then hesitated. He felt a
strong urge not to wake the boy, to let him sleep like this forever, to forever
anticipate a great adventure, forever dream of personal triumph and joy.
This feeling held too much sentiment and weakness to be allowed, but he allowed
it nevertheless. This must be how a
father feels, looking down on his son, worried about an uncertain future,
Obi-Wan thought. I would hate to see him
fail. But I would hate far more to lose
this boy. I would almost rather freeze time here, and freeze myself with it,
than face that. [Greg Bear’s Rogue Planet]
Anakin was liked by the other students, but he had no close friends. He
was not loved. Obi-Wan told himself that Anakin’s gifts naturally set him
apart. But in his heart, he grieved for
Anakin’s loneliness. [Jude Watson’s Jedi Quest: The Way of the Apprentice]
“I just…” Anakin stopped. He took a ragged breath. “I thought you would
be proud of me.” I am proud of you. Obi-Wan
wanted to say the words. They were true. He was proud of so much in Anakin. But
now was not the time to tell him that. Or was it? [Jude Watson’s Jedi Quest: The School of Fear]
The man he
faced was everything Obi-Wan had devoted his life to destroying: Murderer.
Traitor. Fallen Jedi. Lord of the Sith. And here, and now, despite it
all… Obi-Wan still loved him. [Matthew Stover’s Revenge of the Sith]
Obi-Wan
felt as if someone had knotted his insides. He had failed his apprentice and
closest friend. Anakin was suffering,
and the only balm he offered were Jedi platitudes. His body heaved a
stuttering breath. He had his mouth open to speak when the crew chief
interrupted.[ James Luceno’s Labyrinth of evil]
What
Obi-wan shows:
“[Ahsoka]
shows great promise, Anakin,” said Obi-Wan, glancing at him. “The small,
scrappy ones often turn out the best, you know.” And was that a typical Obi-Wan compliment? Oblique. Off-handed. Never
effusive. I think it was. [Karen Miller’s Wild Space]
Obi-Wan’s
gaze warmed. “As you do, Padawan. You never give less than your best. I’m proud of the Jedi you have become.”
Anakin was moved. His Master so rarely
spoke this way. “Thank you, Master.” [Jude Watson. The Final Showdown]
It was
unkind of him to say it, but [Obi-wan]
had no time for kindness. He needed to break Anakin’s inconvenient bond with Durd’s captive scientist before it tightened
any further. Before he completely lost sight of their goal. Their duty. [Karen Miller’s Clone Wars
Gambit: Stealth]
He had
thought for a moment on Azure that Obi-Wan had loved Siri. He thought he’d seen
it in his Master’s eyes after she had died. But Obi-Wan had stood over the man
who had killed her and spared him. If he had loved Siri, could he have done
that? Of course, it was what a Jedi should do. But the way Obi-Wan had spoken had been so measured. With a temperament like
that, it was impossible to love, Anakin was sure. [Jude Watson’s Secrets of
the Jedi]
[Obi-wan]’s face was pale; his eyes
were darkened with fatigue and pain and
something else. Despair? No. It can’t be. Jedi don’t feel things like that. At
least … not this Jedi. [Karen Miller’s Wild Space]
So cool, he was. Positively indifferent. Anyone
would think he spoke of a mere acquaintance. But she knew better. [Karen Miller’s Wild
Space]
[Padmé]
couldn’t help shivering, his voice was
so cold. This was the Obi-Wan who could reduce Anakin to chastened silence.
Almost to tears. [Karen Miller’s Wild Space]
Fanon
Fanon!Obi-wan
is the mom-friend. He’s loving, caring, friendly and, more important, he’s great
at expressing emotions. He’s always hugging people, cooking for them, spoiling
them. He’s the ultimate nice guy. Fanon!Obi-wan has no real flaws, because
usually everything is someone else’s fault and his main function is to fix everyone and
everything. He’s the wisest, kindest, most handsome, most charming, most
understanding, most powerful, most loving, sweetest, friendliest guy you will
ever meet and he shows it you when you meet him.
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